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Gay

I was given these small doors as part of an art installation and I’m to write (or draw) my coming out story on them. I’m not sure what my coming out story is. Is it when you know? Is it when you tell? Is it … Read more

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Vouchsafe

The pizza at Fire is profoundly delicious. It’s pizza that I dream about during the week. Last night, seated next to some creep telling the woman across from him that her job was to stay chaste and that he wouldn’t be seeing her much because … Read more

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In relation

Part of how we individuate as adolescents is to cast ourselves against our parents. My parents were devoutly religious. So I believed in nothing. I had an active death wish as a teen. I was self loathing. Riddled with shame. Contemptuous of everything. Desperate for … Read more

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How I live without shame

I knew this old lady named Ruth Lewis years ago and she was the most joyful person I’ve ever met. I never had a conversation with her where she wasn’t laughing. Well into┬áher 80s and filled with a childlike delight.

Science does that for … Read more

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I’ll speak for me

I am in the fortunate position of not having a social media history of cruel, dickbag observations I have made to the world at large. In my brain, however, I am not so fortunate. I remember a long heinous diatribe about single mothers, for instance, … Read more

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No, the other me

If you are your choices, and you’ve made terrible choices then does that mean you’re terrible? Does it? Who are you, if you are your choices?

You can get stuck there. You can begin to see yourself as a series of failures. A fuck up. … Read more

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But all the dysfunctional ones are different

It’s bullshit that dysfunctional families are dysfunctional in their own way. They are dysfunctional in tedious, standard ways. And reading through the graphic novel, Blue Is the Warmest Color, I was reminded of the reliable ways oppressively conservative families persecute their queer children.

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At the diner

At a diner in Branson, Missouri, we’d been seated in the corner, and at the nearest long table, a youth group held a Bible study. I was 23, at breakfast with my mother and grandmother, and wondered if any of the teens was embarrassed to … Read more

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Teen up

One of the many reasons I’m drawn to teen protagonists is that they have the benefit of being unformed while still deserving our sympathy. We expect teenagers to be selfish and egocentric. It is all about them. And if they can work through that shit … Read more

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He’s at the opposite pole from where I am

He’s the first hand raised in the audience and wants to know why I think Canada is so much more tolerant of gay people than the United States. Afterward, he’s the first to have his book signed. “I want you to know,” he says, “that … Read more

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