Feb 27

This poem has been in my head all week.  Maybe earthquakes, and tsunamis inspired it.  Or maybe the idea of one young woman in a small heated room.  One of the best vacations of my youth was a tour of a whaler.  Horrible.  Their mission, and the years away, and the danger. We climbed the ropes, chanted shanties, dreamed tremulous waves.

Of Politics & Art

for Allen
Norman Dubie

Here, on the farthest point of the peninsula
The winter storm
Off the Atlantic shook the schoolhouse.
Mrs. Whitimore, dying
Of tuberculosis, said it would be after dark
Before the snowplow and bus would reach us.

She read to us from Melville.

How in an almost calamitous moment
Of sea hunting
Some men in an open boat suddenly found themselves
At the still and protected center
Of a great herd of whales
Where all the females floated on their sides
While their young nursed there. The cold frightened whalers
Just stared into what they allowed
Was the ecstatic lapidary pond of a nursing cow’s
One visible eyeball.
And they were at peace with themselves.

Today I listened to a woman say
That Melville might
Be taught in the next decade. Another woman asked, “And why not?”
The first responded, “Because there are
No women in his one novel.”

And Mrs. Whitimore was now reading from the Psalms.
Coughing into her handkerchief. Snow above the windows.
There was a blue light on her face, breasts, and arms.
Sometimes a whole civilization can be dying
Peacefully in one young woman, in a small heated room
With thirty children
Rapt, confident and listening to the pure
God-rendering voice of a storm.

Feb 25

Gavin loves to tell me that he’s too busy.  “I’m sorry, I can’t brush my teeth right now, I’m busy playing trains.”

“No, thank you, I’m not hungry.  I’m fine.  I’m just busy watching a movie.”

“I’m too busy to go to bed.”

And he is busy.  He’s very busy being engaged.  I get this.  The constant working of gears.  I’m busy thinking, while I’m sitting on the couch, staring at the ceiling.  I’m completely busy.  It may look like I’m doing nothing, but I’m working here nonetheless.

And, on the good days, somebody acknowledges, “Of course you’re busy.  Good work here with the train playing, movie watching, couch sitting.  Just keep at it!”

On the good days, someone gets it, and articulates the getting beautifully:  Out in Print Review of A FIELD GUIDE TO DECEPTION.

Feb 24

I’ll never be a plotter (she writes, with apparent conviction). Or, anyway, I haven’t been to date. So, as much as I am drawn to the idea of writing a complex, multi-layered mystery, I know, once I’ve sifted through the details, and outlined, I’ll be bored and drop it. Lately, I’ve had other ideas. The notion of a comedy quickly spilled over into something rather more absurd. Will I pursue this one? Possibly. I have three characters, and 3000 words. That’s a boatload more than I had last weekend. And the tone, the snarky, knowing tone, inhabits the description from the first sentence. It feels good to write, whether or not it comes to anything.

I wasn’t worried, exactly. Not exactly. GIRAFFE PEOPLE taught me writing patience. The story is there, and it will find me.

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